Repeat.

Over and over.
But never under.
Never put aside.
Always constant.
When you feel its done.
Repeat.
Haunting over you.
In you.
Never away from you.
Run.
Hide.
No need to look back.
Its all in front of you.
You say stop.
Continuous.
Moving on.
Blockage.
Construction never ends.
New day but same as yesterday.
Repeat.
New love only new for so long.
Back to square one.
Fights, trust is gone.
We talk.
We don't talk.
Repeat.
We love, then.
No love.
Repeat.
Sex.
In the beginning.
Fades.
Repeat.
When you think life changes courses.
All its doing is starting from a different chapter of the same story.
Then you repeat the same life over.
Why try?
Just repeat in style.
End.

where, oh where?

can i take over your mind, can i go deep inside and live in all the thoughts you never dare express out loud? i know you oh too well, but to be one with you, i have to be you. in those eyes of yours i only see me, but at times i want to see past my selfishness and understand why your heart beats the way it does for me. closer closer, yes i want you closer. further further, im pushing you further away from me. i cant describe this madness. others call it disfunction, i call it love. last night i felt you next to me... in my dreams you were so far away me, you couldnt hear me crying out your name. id ask you to come back but you are no where to be found. Just as lost as a wedding ring in the sand. searching... my love... search.

Term Port Clocking Time

Gate 20, my feet stay still while i watch others pass me by. Some heading right some heading left. Sitting here wondering where everyone else has to be. Thinking about their life i start to evaluate mine, where am i going? why am i standing still while everyone else is making moves. These walls hold no warmth, these chairs hold no support. im left with myself, my own thoughts, and my own decisions. i chose this life but how did mine become so different from all these other souls around me? i close my eyes to hear only sound. What do i hear you ask? culture, diversity, responsibility, beating hearts, talking minds, i hear it all. But most of all i hear the sound of life. im here...

thick & dark

Cold. moonlight.​nothing but dead air.nothing but dead thoughts.went thru too much to let all go.now...went thru too much to continue to stay.lifted up. Now shoved down. I'm here. Your there.once saw all you had in you.​now.​.​hollow.​a future is endless..free life is expensive. Love is expensive. It cost too much of life to love.live free equals one half. The better is gone.we choose paths for that moment.but make a mistake if we choose a path for the future. Breathing is all that's free.remember once you took my breath away? so ​expensive....​free again breathing alone.till next time...don't hold your breath.

Note to self

flowin... thinking...embracing...what was once is no more. what is now wont be later... who i am, changing by seconds, for worst, na for better. for i... to be one...with you, looking...searching...wanting... not needing, but craving. ready to be more than i can be. regrets? sometimes.. to regret equals giving up... quiter? no not i... ima student learning the war of love, have i lost? yes but still willing to sacrifice in the heat of battle... once again learning, taking in all the fires at me, making me a stronger soldier for love. the end of me? never ill be back in fact im here.

Dreams to Sunrise

there you are. what took you so long?
its ok because you are here now. fears are gone. my vision is clear now. relieved.
wow your smile is way brighter than my dreams of you. your amazing...
yes ill hold you tight. no i promise to never let go.
hard to realize this is real. pinch me real quick, make sure this isnt my dream still.
you know you came right in time right? that sunset looks amazing in your eyes.
heaven doesnt look so bad afterall. stop smiling, its contagious.... yea, i cant stop it either.
put your hand on my heart real quick. do you feel that? yea, thats all you, it beats that way for you.
stop blushing, its too much to handle. regrets?
yes, my past,not waiting for you, waisting feelings on others when i should have kept them all for you. dont worry you have a part of me none of them saw.
you know, your right, there is no more after us.
Lets go home baby.
HOME... it never felt so good to say that word. i know your tired, im tird too, searching all these years for you was hard work.
We can rest now love, here lay your head on my chest. im so glad i dont have to hurry and force myself to sleep anymore just to see you.
Tomorrow is the rest of our lives, together, it shall be the most beautiful day to come. sleep tight my queen... -i love you too sweetie..
-no baby i love you more, more than you ever know... Ive ben waiting for you....

UN NEW RE

LETS START FROM THE ROOTS.

BABY EYES, BABY SOUL.

YOUTH.

KNOWING SO MUCH, NOT KNOWING HOW TO SAY IT ALL.

IF I ONLY KNEW THEN WHAT ALL I WOULD BE NOW

CAN YOU SEE IT?

FRESH FLESH TO SHEDDING DEAD SKIN

IM HAPPY WHERE MY EYES TAKE ME NOW

GROWING, BECAUSE NOW...

IM REBORN.

WELCOME TO MY WORLD.